IM BACK, in 2011.

again, im trying to make it happen. BLOGGING. it seems so long i did not express here. due to few reasons, as so many things happened..

regarding my previous post,

" Kini..hidup aku diselimut insan baru.dan krana dia,hati aku memilih utk kmbali menulis :) "

and because of him too, im here today,in this entry. i begin to write, i begin to say.

WHATSNEW?

2010. Tahun yang melimpahi 1001 kenangan. Pahit manis. Terlalu byk cabaran yg dihadapi sepanjang tiga bulan berada di sini. Jatuh bangun seorang siswi dan manusia mnjadi hidangan yg tpaksa dijamah walaupun ada kalanya mnjerut tingkah dan batas sabar jiwa.

Cuti akan datang seakan mmbuka ruang bagi bernafas, meninggalkan kabut dan serabut jiwa yg mncengkam. Segala puji bagi Allah,Tuhan yang mencipta, memiliki dan memelihara sekalian alam. Jiwa yg bagai dicarik carik dgn 1001 masalah masih utuh berdiri,tinggal hanya bersandarkan pada tiang tauhid. Ujian yg bertali arus mematangkan dan mencorakkan kehidupan yg dilalui hari demi hari.

Kini..hidup aku diselimut insan baru.dan krana dia,hati aku memilih utk kmbali menulis :)

AGAIN, IT BEGINS.

it has been a year i left this stuff. im back with new life and new hope :)

LETSWRITE

facebook 's

huhu jz nw i noticed eda has tagged me.and here goes my answer ;)

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage:limau ais
2. Last phone call:not sure.hazwan kot.
3. Last text message: my dear.(amirulalif)
4. Last song you listened to: anyone else but you - michael cera and ellen
5. Last time you cried: lastnight

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: yes
7. Been cheated on: not sure
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: oh yes regret!
9. Lost someone special: ohh yesss
10. Been depressed: quite times
11. Been drunk and threw up: never drink

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. rainbow
13. colorful
14. except grey

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend: yup
16. Fallen out of love: hmmm
17. Laughed until you cried: no
18. Met someone who changed you: yes,my bf nw.even he didnt ask me to change
19. Found out who your true friends were: not yet
20. Found out someone was talking about you: yes, busybody ppl.
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: sure la kan.hehe
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: (facebook)all.i only apprve ppl who knows me.
23. How many kids do you want to have: twins..cuteee...
24. Do you have any pets: sure,pets lover. i got pet in my room nw.
25. Do you want to change your name: no
26. What did you do for your last birthday: i din do anything.ive been sang bthday song in front of the walk of life
27. What time did you wake up today: 7am
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: crying, smone motivates me
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: Finals..haha
30. Last time you saw your Mother: a few weeks ago
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: my ***
32. What are you listening to right now: silence
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: no
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: 12 sept 09
35. Most visited webpage: Facebook, Myspace,and blablablaa
36. Whats your real name: ayunur afiqah abdullah
37. Nicknames: ika,fika,ayu,yunur, and the latet one is 'vivi'.ngek ah hairi ;p
38. Relationship Status: Not sure.ask him.
39. Zodiac sign: aquarius
40. Male or female?: female
41. Elementary?:Sk Zainab 1
42. Middle School?: SMK Dato' Ahmad Maher
43. High school/college?: kedah matriculation college
45. Long or short hair?: now short.
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: haha
48. What do you like about yourself?: easily get laugh.hard to smile ;)
49. Piercings: not anymore
50. Tattoos: NEVER
51. Righty or lefty: Righty

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: myb when i hv a child
53. First piercing:forgt
54. First best friend: bella
55. First sport you joined: dn rmmbr
56. First vacation: dn rmmbr
58. First pair of trainers: dn rmmbr

RIGHT NOW
59. Eating: chocolate chips cookies
60. Drinking: limau ais
61. I'm about to: call my best ex-boyf, 'afiq'
62. Listening to: silent
63. Waiting for: text message from dearest

YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids?: ov cos
65. Get Married?: err.dn know.
66. Career?: many

WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes: not sure
68. Hugs or kisses: both is the best
69. Shorter or taller: average
70. Older or Younger: baby
71. Romantic or spontaneous: spontaneous kot.
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: both!
73. Sensitive or loud: moderate
74. Hook-up or relationship: err.not sure
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: not sure

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger: hehe
77. Drank hard liquor: never
78. Lost glasses/contacts: yup
79. Sex on first date: hehe
80. Broken someone's heart: err.frgve me
82. Been arrested: no idea
83. Turned someone down: i didnt mean to do so
84. Cried when someone died: yup
85. Fallen for a friend?: honestly,once! haha

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: YES
87. Miracles: YES
88. Love at first sight: YES.really.
89. Heaven: YES
90. Santa Claus: NO
91. Kiss on the first date: YES
92. Angels: YES

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: yes, when comes to 'terpaksa'.
95. Did you sing today?: i hate singing
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: if needed.
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: i wanna renew my life,begin 2004.
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be? 30 august 08. so that im not losing that person.huh
100. Posting this as 100 truths?:yeah,sure!

book ;)

Bat lisa n me entered the library.bored. i left both of them, looking for newspaper. i bumped onto this book, written by robert gentle. Go on,admit it. Most of da business documnts that cross ur desk really test ur patience.if u're brave enough,u'll skim thru them in an attempt to capture the key points. More often than not, u'll file them o throw them into da bin.that's bcoz most business writing is long,cmplex n takes forever to get to the point. Ths is self-defeating as the available reading time is often only a few minutes o less. It's a fundamental set of techniques that u'll b able to apply to all kinds of business writing-letters,e-mails,reports,memos,websites,business plans,forms,sign boards n even graphs.it will demolish many of da enduring myths that many of us hold dear about business writing.so read ths!it works.

23rd birthday ;)

AmirulAlif 's

love, hurts.

i shouldnt blame him lastnite.it was my fault.i know it's my fault. he was so tired daily,i shouldnt bother him.he needs some rest, but ive been so selfish, we've argued.urgh,im sick of it. dear,ive been waiting patiently, and im tired of giving chance.yeaa,i know it takes time to get over serious relationship.now our distance further. it isnt easy. since we cant physically be for each other, communication becomes essential.if he cant manage to stay close while being apart, wut else can i do? why it is so hard for us, to knw each other, to love each other. all i ever wanted was to be part of his heart, and fr us to be together, to never be apart.im helpless, waitin for his reaction towards me. does he love me'..? i dn knw ~ i believe, im able to stay calm and not get angry anymore, especially when there is a difficulty or have to wait a long time.'patience', word that i need to bear in mind.and no clue if i ever be like this, maybe forever..


i'll wait for u, amirulalif.

memorial park

tengok gambar gmbar lama,tiba tiba teringat atok.the best grndpa ever! last aku pegi melawat, masa balik cuti midsem haritu.pegi tambah batu putih ;). i miss u tok!

im deleting older post. tq.

it is better to quietly missing someone rather than let them know n and just get no response..

i didnt mean to hurt u just nw.i've been selfish.sorry. i got too many things to consider.im weak.i dn knw wut da hell had happened to me.im in one sided love,by the way u are,i guess so.it hurts me.i should distant myself from him.should i waste my time on a guy who isnt willing to waste his time on me? am i wrong to say dat love is unfair? dear, i'm missing u.i only get one last kiss from u.knowing it was just a month ago n nw u are far away from me dear.i still remember da first time u uttered' i love u'.i need to feel ur hands all over me.i need to feel u kissing me.i need to feel u holding me. i need to feel ur touch, u are hugging me. it's hard for me to hear ur voice again..dear, i care for u. i can't keep on living this way.u keep on saying u've been busy.cant u sacrifice a few seconds..cant u feel hw i feel inside..urgh.why it's hard for me to fgt u. i would try to give u everything,just to make u happy,just to prove how much i need u.dear,u dn care how i feel.am i important to u..? i'd cry for u.. it's hard for me to hear u utter da word 'love'.nw i dn know wut to do with myself.i cant stop looking at those pictures on my phone screen and waiting for ur text message..there just one thing that i want to know,
why would God want to hurt me so bad..? does He know how much it hurts to be mssing u..


ILY,amirulalif.





written by, fika.

sepatah kata buat kalian.

ive heard da same thing. uhh come on laa.. da penat denga.jemu. please, dn blame othr ppl k! i tak berubah kerana dia. i tak hipokrit kerana dia. tolong la faham.. i berubah bkn sbb sesiapa. improve diri tak salahkan.. guys, i da banyak sedar now. belajar dari kesalahn sendiri. pengalaman hidup. im not strong enough, im not mature enough.. so please, jgn judge i bukan bukan. to diana,hana,amir,faiz,adi n others, im so sorry. i tak lupa u all ok. stop saying, "ikaaa i miss d old u". hey dgn u guys i tak beza apa pun.kita stil boleh kawan mcm dulu aite? so wut? u keep on saying, u cant believe this n that.. ahh guys, people change, so do i. terima la i seadanya. tak perlu komen ok. i buat utk kebaikan. and even my best cuzzie, fara. u too. try to accept da way i am. trust me '

more...

today,30july09.i've done,finally!.hehe da lama nak start blog baru..tp tak kesampaian.create,cancel.create,cancel. harini, create dan teruskan bloggingggggg ;D hehe
tahun 2009,from jan to july, til now, banyak pahit manis. family,friends,surrounding...macam macam. bila ingat balik, terharu..teruja..tersenyum :-)

new experience in 2009

start blogging! yuhuuuuuuuuuuuu~ byk pertanyaan, pelbagai soalan dari rakan. "bila nk tulis puisi lagi?kenapa tak update?kenapa delete blog?"kenapa itu..kenapa ini..previous blog,it's all bout poem.no longer, guys. now,im back, tp kini tiada lagi puisi indah buat mr.F. sorry guys.(^_+)

anyways,letstartfresh!