23rd birthday ;)

AmirulAlif 's

love, hurts.

i shouldnt blame him lastnite.it was my fault.i know it's my fault. he was so tired daily,i shouldnt bother him.he needs some rest, but ive been so selfish, we've argued.urgh,im sick of it. dear,ive been waiting patiently, and im tired of giving chance.yeaa,i know it takes time to get over serious relationship.now our distance further. it isnt easy. since we cant physically be for each other, communication becomes essential.if he cant manage to stay close while being apart, wut else can i do? why it is so hard for us, to knw each other, to love each other. all i ever wanted was to be part of his heart, and fr us to be together, to never be apart.im helpless, waitin for his reaction towards me. does he love me'..? i dn knw ~ i believe, im able to stay calm and not get angry anymore, especially when there is a difficulty or have to wait a long time.'patience', word that i need to bear in mind.and no clue if i ever be like this, maybe forever..


i'll wait for u, amirulalif.

memorial park

tengok gambar gmbar lama,tiba tiba teringat atok.the best grndpa ever! last aku pegi melawat, masa balik cuti midsem haritu.pegi tambah batu putih ;). i miss u tok!

im deleting older post. tq.

it is better to quietly missing someone rather than let them know n and just get no response..

i didnt mean to hurt u just nw.i've been selfish.sorry. i got too many things to consider.im weak.i dn knw wut da hell had happened to me.im in one sided love,by the way u are,i guess so.it hurts me.i should distant myself from him.should i waste my time on a guy who isnt willing to waste his time on me? am i wrong to say dat love is unfair? dear, i'm missing u.i only get one last kiss from u.knowing it was just a month ago n nw u are far away from me dear.i still remember da first time u uttered' i love u'.i need to feel ur hands all over me.i need to feel u kissing me.i need to feel u holding me. i need to feel ur touch, u are hugging me. it's hard for me to hear ur voice again..dear, i care for u. i can't keep on living this way.u keep on saying u've been busy.cant u sacrifice a few seconds..cant u feel hw i feel inside..urgh.why it's hard for me to fgt u. i would try to give u everything,just to make u happy,just to prove how much i need u.dear,u dn care how i feel.am i important to u..? i'd cry for u.. it's hard for me to hear u utter da word 'love'.nw i dn know wut to do with myself.i cant stop looking at those pictures on my phone screen and waiting for ur text message..there just one thing that i want to know,
why would God want to hurt me so bad..? does He know how much it hurts to be mssing u..


ILY,amirulalif.





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